Top ten reasons for how i'm messing my life up so spectaculy ! :(

1.Read my other blog

2.I got with a skank boy again, thought i would have learnt after my ex.Guess not!

3.Am a crap friend, cos dont know wether im coming or going.

4.i think im probably an alkie.

5.I feel a complete mess, read my other blog some more. Ditto door scenario.

6.My family dont want anything to do with me, fairplay, i dont want to know then either, but i am so lonely, like all the time.But on the other hand, it get all stresses out with anyone other than my bestest friends.

7.I'm messing college up, cos i cant go in. This is a combination of being piss poor, and feeling lower than low.and i dont just mean 'bit fed up'.

8.STILL dont know what to do with my life, and if i dont get my UCAS done pronto il be even more screwed. But i really dont know what to do, i just know i need to do something.

9.why cant i find a boy who isnt a complete arse, just for once?

10.Im 25.and im about as rich as a bolivian peasant.this depresses me.a lot. And yes, i except my doc is right i do need a break, but seriously, how is anyone supposed to live on like a fiver a week, plus buy proper food to recover from ED?!

Ok i thought of more than 10...

11. Am going to lose my beautiful flat, because stupid bollocking housing benefit rate has changed.IM NOT SKANKING OFF THE STATE-i have paid my tax long enough to be claimimg some back while im ill, but why have they just slashed all the rates IN HALF!! Getting my house was the most amazing thing, and now im going to fucking lose it.

12. I'm just a bit crap really

13. I spend half my life at the doctors, or on the phone to freaking out of hours service.sweet.

14.Read my other blog again

think that about sums it up.

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what a lovely day:)

I've had a most fabulous day! Saw my good friend, who I havnt seen for a good few years, for one reason or another, and we had the most brilliant catch up today! Somethings dont change a bit:) had a nice mooch in town, then went and had Tapas and talked and talked and then some!! and my other fabulous friend is down from uni for the weekend, so am really enjoying it:) had to stop being antisocial sometime,and hey, this is a pretty good way!:)

Happy happy happy happy happy happy happy

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its alright though...cos im having a good time!

Ok, so this is all going to be about things that make me happy...some things to know about me...im a big loser:) but im proud! i love wearing mad clothes, tacky shoes and im quite happy to look like a bit of a fool if it makes me happy! I love clothes and jewellery-but not in a superficial clothes junkie kinda way, i just like how you can play around. Im not the most confident person that you will ever meet. My friends tell me ive got a 'funky' sense of humour, and i love making poeople laugh. I adore kings of leon, i love anything pink, bows, and sparkly stuff.ooh and im a bit obsessed with my hair straightners!
Today im wearing tights with a bow print on them, a blue cord skirt, and a burgandy jumper, pretty boring actually, so think will put my ballet shoes on(actual ballet shoes, i kid you not)
God i sound superficial...but hey, im not trying to write to make myself sound fantastic. Ive been going through a bit of a funny patch in life, and its made m realise that you have to start trying to be happy with yourself before anyone else can...ha i appear to have a tendency to say the cheesiest things! but also, well its made me realise who my real freinds are, and how important they are to me:) so im gonna make today a good day!:)
xxx