Top ten reasons for how i'm messing my life up so spectaculy ! :(

1.Read my other blog

2.I got with a skank boy again, thought i would have learnt after my ex.Guess not!

3.Am a crap friend, cos dont know wether im coming or going.

4.i think im probably an alkie.

5.I feel a complete mess, read my other blog some more. Ditto door scenario.

6.My family dont want anything to do with me, fairplay, i dont want to know then either, but i am so lonely, like all the time.But on the other hand, it get all stresses out with anyone other than my bestest friends.

7.I'm messing college up, cos i cant go in. This is a combination of being piss poor, and feeling lower than low.and i dont just mean 'bit fed up'.

8.STILL dont know what to do with my life, and if i dont get my UCAS done pronto il be even more screwed. But i really dont know what to do, i just know i need to do something.

9.why cant i find a boy who isnt a complete arse, just for once?

10.Im 25.and im about as rich as a bolivian peasant.this depresses me.a lot. And yes, i except my doc is right i do need a break, but seriously, how is anyone supposed to live on like a fiver a week, plus buy proper food to recover from ED?!

Ok i thought of more than 10...

11. Am going to lose my beautiful flat, because stupid bollocking housing benefit rate has changed.IM NOT SKANKING OFF THE STATE-i have paid my tax long enough to be claimimg some back while im ill, but why have they just slashed all the rates IN HALF!! Getting my house was the most amazing thing, and now im going to fucking lose it.

12. I'm just a bit crap really

13. I spend half my life at the doctors, or on the phone to freaking out of hours service.sweet.

14.Read my other blog again

think that about sums it up.

xxx

somehow i thought a nervous breakdown would be more glamorous than this!

Ok-im not taking the mick-read my other blog, but seriously, surely this conjours up images of sofa's, duvets, an endless supply of kinder beuonos and kettle chips, and the odd bottle of wine or six, whilst watching lots of daytime tv, and only leaving the comfort of your duvet for the odd toilet break. All in all, a break from life, and a rather relaxing one at that...this is the stuff daydreams are made of.FACT.
Having a nervous breakdown...not so much. Ok, so im kinda joking, but i do feel seriously at breaking point at the mo...and yesterday i got to the omg i am never leaving my house/bed again/cant cope sort of scenario.and it was very messy, involving a lot of snot and tears.And a couple of very worried friends.and a few phonecalls to various out of hours services. and i still feel a mess, and you know what-well if you want my advice, daytime tv is rubbish anyway, its a surefire way to get a one way ticket to springfields, and it just aint glamorous.
im not taking the piss.im just trying to see if theres a funny side to this.and i think im failing miserably.
FUNTIMES

xxx